If mental disorders are hip, I’m finally “in”

Dec 15, 2005

#Rants and Raves

I had a rough day. Really, it started a week ago when my shrink (yes, I have a shrink and yes, I realize how friggin’ hip and soooo ‘two thousands’ that makes me) told me it’s ok, and time, to start reducing my Post Partum Depression medication. “Swell!” I said. I cut my meds by 10mg about a week ago. Then all brain hell cut loose.

Without rehashing my whole day, let’s just say that the following highlights can push a Post Partum Brain Effed woman over the edge:

  • Starbucks gets my drink all wrong. I go back. They hand me another drink and I promptly drop the whole thing in the parking lot at Costco. Without having enjoyed even a fourth of it.
  • At Costco they tell me they can’t get my Christmas Cards made up. Looks like another year of “happy Valentine’s Day!” cards.
  • Ten minutes after arriving home, there is a suprise visit from a realetor wanting to show the house. LB is napping. I have to wake her up for a ten minute “showing” where the people will not buy the house anyway.
  • In a last ditch effort to feel better about myself, I go buy some chocolate and cute slippers for LB at Target. The girl doesn’t put them in the bag with the other items and I spend thirty minutes on hold with Target for thirteen dollars of merchandice where I finally give up and call it quits.

Tell me it’s the Celexa. Tell me it’s the hormones. Tell me it’s normal. Tell me it’s just a bad day. Because when I finally gave up and crawled into bed in the dark and bawled, I prayed to the pregnancy stick gods that please, oh please, let there be a baby brewing and please, oh please, let that be why I’m insane. Because at least that way, I can eat poptarts and not feel bad about it and not have to tell people that 10mg can make or break me.



  1. I agree with Mari- the holidays are a terrible time to be adjusting meds!  It’s a stressful enough time without having to deal with that!  Your day sounded awful, I am sorry!  Why is it that everything goes wrong on the same day?  I’ve had some of those days where all the little things happen that alone would be dumb, but not a huge thing, but you add ALL the things together and it’s bad!  *HUGS*

    By Holly on 2005 12 15

  2. Sorry you had such a bad day/week.  Welcome to the “in” crowd!

    By Jan on 2005 12 16

  3. Spilling your whole Starbucks coffee?!  That alone could put me over the edge on some days…but with all the other crap you had to deal with too? It’s no wonder you had a bad day!  I hope today gets better…and your weekend had better damn well be a jolly good time! (Only because you’re hanging out with me, of course.) wink  I’ll even buy you a big ol’ venti gingerbread latte at Starbucks to make up for the one you lost.  Hell, we have 4 Starbucks within 1/4 mile of my place.  Make it two lattes!  Woohoo!!

    By Paige (CoraBelle) on 2005 12 16

  4. You mean I’m not the only crazy mom out there with a shrink???  Huge Hugs!  I know you that well, but I wanted to let you know you aren’t alone and that somewhere out in the crazy blogosphere people care!  I actually skipped my appt today because I won’t go through a med change right now.

    Hang in there!

    By JakesGirl on 2005 12 16

  5. Thats funny, I’ve been thinking about going on meds. I think my hormones are permanately scarred after having Gianna. I get mostly edgey for some reason. Snapping at everyone. Maybe I’m just nuts. I’m sorry your having a bad week! :0( Taking some time off the computer usually feels great. Sometimes it adds more stress than it relieves. I hear ya! Maybe I’ll take the weekend off too. XOXOXO

    By kelli on 2005 12 16

  6. The place I go to for x’mas card, they print them in 4 hrs.  (AND much better quality than Costco) You can pick them up or you can have them mail it to you for just $2!  (of course online upload and everything)  I just got mine!  I Like my cards a lot.  Let me know if you want to give that a try!

    By Kerry on 2005 12 16

  7. whoops…clicked on Submit too soon.

    Sorry you had a bad day yesterday :(  I know there are a lot going on!  and you are keeping up with ALL of them PLUS a cute toddler!  It’s sooo nice that you are still keeping us up-to-date! 

    Taking a break will be good! 

    Hope you have a Great weekend! 
    Love, Kerry

    By Kerry on 2005 12 16

  8. its the hormones and the meds…I personally like to think those of us on “meds” are the normal ones and its everybody else who is crazy!

    hang in there sweetie!

    By ^starshine on 2005 12 16

  9. totally agree with mari about changing the meds during these holidays. that just doesn’t seem logical. doctors can be such fucking idiots…just like everybody else.

    By texasbelle on 2005 12 16

  10. Oh Man! I know how whacked out my mom was when she tried to decrease her Celexa…if ya need it, ya need it dude! So go do what you need to do and bring us back a happier Mrs. Flinger. We all love ya lots and lots…feel better soon!!! =)

    By speechjane on 2005 12 16

  11. poor mrs. flinger. . .here’s to much better days ahead . .thinking of you. . .the holidays just add to the STRESS that can just break you. . .feel better. . .

    By mommyofkgrc on 2005 12 16

  12. Oh hon *hugs* Thinking of you!

    By Sarah on 2005 12 16

  13. Bad day… the most stressful time of year… 

    What’s with Costco? I thought they ruled?  I had good luck with Shutterfly… speedy speedy too! and got a beauty in the mail done by Snapfish.

    By Marie on 2005 12 17

  14. Hang in there!

    About house showings—-if you don’t get much notice, just let them know you have a little one and you’ll be home. I had one showing where they showed up an hour late and we were home and eating lunch. Food on the floor and groceries still on the counter…

    Have a relaxing weekend!

    By Amy_M on 2005 12 17

  15. Enjoy a night of midget wrestling. Now that has to lighten the mood right? Hang in there girl, cause damn if I can’t girl through this girl thing without you!

    BTW - you have mail (REAL MAIL!)

    By Nicole on 2005 12 17

  16. I’ve been out of town for a family thing all weekend, but you kept popping in my mind…and here I thought it was because I ate 2 blueberry scones from Starbucks.  Leslie, it’s one thing to have a day like that when you are on the top of your game…but to have a bad day when you feel like you are already 2 steps behind the rest of the world would send anyone to the darkness of their bed to hibernate.  You deserved some time away…all mommies do at some point. I’m sending vibes for a much better week for you this week!

    By Charla on 2005 12 18

  17. Oh, and ditto the comments above…your dr must have been hitting the egg nog early to decide you needed a decrease in meds at Christmas time!

    By Charla on 2005 12 18

  18. I’m “in” too, so we’ll chat about that later!  Glad to know I’m in good company.

    By Little Miss on 2005 12 19