UPDATE TO Mrs. Flinger October 16, 2015
Because the Universe has a wicked sense of humor, after this delcaration, my blog threw up all over my last upgrade.
So I'm starting over using Craft. Turning 40 and kid entering Jr High next year, sometimes it's just time for a change. These archives will still exist in the way the last child goes off to college and their room is the same for 20 years, but it's just time to move forward.
Since I can’t reach my doctor… Jul 25, 2005
Y’all.. I hurt. Not like crampy hurt.. but hurt. Like knife-in-the-ovary hurt. Like “Helloooooo Uterus!” hurt. I don’t normally *feel* my uterus. But I am now. And the emotions? PLEASE! So far, I’ve cried at Dizzy Tangerine, Erin’s, Seuss’s, and Mama-C-Ta‘s blogs today. TODAY. *sigh*
I quote Mr. Flinger, “I know that the stick says.. but you’re pregnant.”
Which reminds me… How has marriage changed since having a child? ‘Cause after all this emotional crap and paranoia/freeky mommishness over LB, it’s just not the same.
Issues.. oh, so many issues Jul 25, 2005
So, I upgraded to EE 1.3 because suddently my site wasn’t requiring a log in. WHAT?! I know I know. Two things about the log in. First, I don’t want other judgy eyes or people who wouldn’t understand what my blog is for to read it. And second, y’all left comments with the safe feeling that it’s under a passworded blog. So when it comes up without one? Yea, I freaked.
If you came yesterday and didn’t need to log in, can you let me know? I’m not sure exactly when it all was open.
I took down a couple of posts for the moment that would concern me if they were read by some people. I’m working on the issue. I *might* go to a different system where you’d have to log in to see all of these posts (and/or any more personal posts) and new non-personal posts would become public. Make sense? No? Yea, I know.. me either.
I’ll keep y’all updated on my issue. I have so many.. I swear.. I’ll let you know them all. ‘Cause they’re JUST that interesting. [snort]
Still negative.. and still emotional Jul 23, 2005
Another test today. You know.. just to be sure. (Although, I’m still not scheduled to start for another week.)
It said Not Pregnant.
That’s a good thing, right?
So why am I crying?
Blogger Contest is Closed Jul 22, 2005
Our Digitally Essential Blogger / Blogspot contest is over. Thank you to all who participated and GOOD LUCK!! Tomorrow morning I am gonna give your links with your haikus to the judges so they can decide which ones are the top for that will get the free custom design for their blogs. When they DO decide I will post an entry with all the haikus and of course the winners !! If you win you will be notified through e-mail and then we can start your design. So fasten your seatbelts….results coming soon !!!
And then there was screaming Jul 21, 2005
We’re not going. Kids have a way of laughing in the face of plans. Laugh, LB. LAUGH. You win.
I am smokin’ something strong.. and it ain’t lucky charms Jul 20, 2005
I’m driving myself and the girl to Seattle this weekend. Check that… I’m driving myself and the nine-month-old-baby-who-can’t-sit-still-for-a-min-and-hates-riding to Seattle this weekend. Alone.
Did you hear me? ALONE. ::GULP::
Bloggidy Bloggidy Bloggidy**ed Jul 20, 2005
It’s a big day in Blogland!
First, y’all.. you must (MUST MUST.. do you hear me? MUST) go send some comment love on these gals:
Paige who is JUST starting to blog! Welcome to blogland, Paige-O!!! Y’all will remember her. She was the pretty girl in the white dress in the wedding I got to be the Matron-of-Honor for.
Tanya who just moved her site to WordPress and is playing with her new site right now.
Don’t forget my blogroll.. Comment love all over your asses! Even if I can’t get there right now? Please know I’m loving you!
::Kisses and all that shuga!::
**OH! Shoot.. I didn’t post some people. Crapola! Ok.. I need to update my blogroll, ‘cause there’s a couple I go to but aren’t here. AND, if you link here, lemme know! I’d love to add you to my list. Linky Love makes the world go ‘round. Ok.. I’m going to bed now. No really, I swear!**
All these haikus Jul 20, 2005
It’s making me write my own, so here ya go!
Really have to pee
It’s starting to get funny
Oh too much coffee
Oh, what a good time
I’m having doing design
Come see what I made!
Don’t hate me because I’m negative Jul 18, 2005
I peed on a stick. An UNUSED stick, I might add. And it actually read “Not Pregnant” because the two line thing, apparently, is entirely to confusing to us morons that call the doctor with a positive test bawling when, in fact, it is not.
Can I tell you something? Jul 16, 2005
I came to Borders to work. I have
five websites to do. I really want to work. I have ideas, I’m excited to work for these gals, I love it. But seriously? I’m totally unable to do it. I’m on the verge of tears for the third day in a row. I’m so emotional and crazy in my brain. Crazy. Like, “My god, remember PPD? Remember???” I was just on Mama-C-Ta’s site and couldn’t help but tear up at her new lil’ boy. I don’t want that. I know I know! It hit me.. Post Partum Depression. Remember those first few days home? Remember crying for weeks? Remember how horrible I felt? OOOHHHHH, GOOOOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDD.
Can’t I just fast forward until the third month? Everything was so much better then. Of course, I’d also sought help and was finally starting to come back to myself. It’ll be different this time, right? It’ll be better, right? I know more, right? I can find help, I can learn from the past, I can be more calm and aware and ready for the challenges, right?
All of this and the test isn’t even positive yet. Now excuse me, I need some chocolate and a kleenex.