UPDATE TO Mrs. Flinger October 16, 2015
Because the Universe has a wicked sense of humor, after this delcaration, my blog threw up all over my last upgrade.
So I'm starting over using Craft. Turning 40 and kid entering Jr High next year, sometimes it's just time for a change. These archives will still exist in the way the last child goes off to college and their room is the same for 20 years, but it's just time to move forward.
The Inner Voice - Mommy Guilt, Family, Work and You Jan 13, 2010
Expectations are resentments under construction. - Anne Lamott
The Inner Voice. “Your son needs you. His eyes are so puffy. He needs sleep and your arms.”
The Inner Voice. “You better get your work done on time or you will disappoint. You don’t want to be THAT PERSON. We rail against THAT PERSON. Be a better person at work. What if you had no job? WHAT IF.”
The Inner Voice. “Look at those stay at home moms. They love their kids more than you do. Clearly.”
Logic has no chance. Has no foothold.
My mind is a neighborhood I try not go to alone. - Anne Lamott
The Inner Voice. “You can’t do it all.”
The Inner Voice. “You can do it all.”
The Inner Voice. “But you will fail.”
Reality says my son is here with me, “working” too. His medium is a coloring book, mine is a computer. Together we connect the dots, balancing the impossible.
Reality says we’re fine, the children know they’re loved.
Reality says it’s a constant struggle, a good struggle, a necessary struggle.
Reality says some days will be harder than others.
And in the end, it is all ok. Reality, history, logic, fact. Looking back, it all turned out ok.
It always does.
The most terrifying day of your life is the day the first one is born. Your life, as you know it… is gone, never to return. But they learn how to walk, and they learn how to talk and you want to be with them. And they turn out to be the most delightful people you will ever meet in your life. - Lost in Translation