It’s your birthday and I’ll cry if I want to

20/May/2008

Today was not supposed to be your birthday. I was focused on June 15th but you had a different plan. Instead, today, and every May 20th will be a celebration for us. We’ll celebrate your early arrival, your strength, your loving spirit and your joyful soul.

Today we’ll celebrate you.

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You are the baby that took away my words. You are the son that we hoped for. You are the child that laughs easily making everyone smile around you.

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You are joy.

You are happiness.

You are very very busy and sometimes you make me so very very tired.

You have this habit of wanting to be held while simultaneously wanting to run from our house to California and back before bed time. It’s comical to everyone else watching. It’s a workout for my biceps. I’m thinking of trying out for the UFC before you turn two. I know your dad will watch. He’d probably bet on the Other Guy, though.

It’s ok. I still love you for it.

You keep me on my toes. You bring me to my knees. You create games out of Tupperware, tampons and recycling. You’re perfectly happy to crawl butt naked around the wood floor and drag your penis from the living room to the kitchen. Don’t worry, you don’t have worms. We checked.

You do, however, have an ear for music. When a song comes on your face lights up and you jiggle your legs until you fall. You find this so completely hilarious you have a hard time getting back up.

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You giggle at everything your sister does.

She does a lot of things for you. And to you. She likes to pretend you’re a princess.

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You don’t mind too much.

We enjoy you fully, our little Man Baby, the one who completed our family. We need nothing else, our snuggles are warm, our arms are full, our hearts are complete and we all adore you more than you’ll ever know.

Thank you for being you even if you still don’t sleep through the night. (I’m telling myself it’s because I’m so super cool and you’d rather be with me at 3AM then by yourself because it’s the single time each day we sit and snuggle in the quiet. And I love it, too.) Thank you for being early. Thank you for being amazing. Thank you for choosing us as your family.

We love you.
Mommy

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And, to the Inernet, thank you. Thank you to our friends who held him and let me poop. Thank you to my family. Thank you to Jack Daniels. Thank you for watching him come earlygo to the NICU, grow, come home, crawl, giggle, walk. Thank you for sharing this year with us.

Thank you.

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Comments

  1. Sweet sweet sweet.  You brought a tear to my eye. Congrats to all of you for surviving that first year.

    By followthatdog on 2008 05 20

  2. That is beautiful!! smile
    Happy Birthday!! (to all of you!)

    By GeekMommy on 2008 05 20

  3. Happy Birthday, little dude!

    By Sonia on 2008 05 20

  4. Happy birthday to the man baby, err, I mean MAN BABY!!!!!!!

    By Paloma Lisa on 2008 05 20

  5. That is so touching, Mama!

    I especially love the part “you keep me on my toes. you bring me to my knees.” If that isn’t motherhood at it’s best, I don’t know what is.

    Happy Birthday to your little man!

    By themommykelly on 2008 05 20

  6. Happy birthday, Baby O!!!

    The photo montage was so beautiful!  And I didn’t realize how much he looks like his big sis until I saw that pic you posted up there (the one in the way cute green striped shirt).  I mean, WOW.

    By Jenny L on 2008 05 20

  7. Wow! One year already? Happy Birthday and congratulations!

    By hilary on 2008 05 20

  8. Oh my! That was a fast year! Happy birthday Baby O! You have a great family!!

    By Marie on 2008 05 20

  9. Happy Birthday little one!!!!! You are adorable and such a blessing to everyone! He totally looks so much like LB! cute!!!!

    By Bree on 2008 05 20

  10. Wow, that first year goes by fast!  It seems like it was just a few weeks ago that I was holding my 2 1/2 month old and exclaiming, “Wow, she had the baby already?!”  Happy Birthday little man!  And here’s to a great 2nd year.

    By Momto2 on 2008 05 20

  11. This brought tears to my eyes.
    Happy Birthday to your little one!

    By LifeAsIKnowIt on 2008 05 20

  12. Awww…happy first birthday to your wonderful Baby O! I can’t believe he’s already one.

    What a wonderful birthday tribute mama!

    By Jamie on 2008 05 20

  13. Wow, that was a fast year. Today, all of my little students sang BD to Baby O without me leading them. *surprise* I only mentioned his big day while at the calendar because a first is so special. They also made a play dough cake with candles too.  Baby O, you are loved so many miles away. More than you realize.

    By Oma Flinger on 2008 05 20

  14. That was so sweet.  I am probably going to watch it 100 times.  I don’t see me ever getting tired of it.
    I feel so blessed to have been part of baby O’s first year.  Thanks for letting me share.
    Happy 1st Birthday Baby O!

    By Laura on 2008 05 20

  15. I can’t believe its been a YEAR already!  Happy Happy Birthday O!

    By Marjorie on 2008 05 20

  16. Jenny and Bree, I KNOW. He looks exactly like LB. Here I thought it was my one chance at having a kid that actually looks like mine… DARNIT. wink

    And thank you everyone. I’m so printing these out for his baby book. YES, he has one. .. um.. it’s my blog. But still! I will print them and put them in his Baby O box.

    By Mrs. Flinger on 2008 05 20

  17. Has it been a year already? It seems like just a few months ago you were telling us about his birth. It’s crazy how time flies. Happy birthday big guy!

    By Christine on 2008 05 20

  18. Happy Birthday Baby O! I can’t believe it’s been a year since I met you for the first time, such a tiny bundle of joy! smile

    By Paige on 2008 05 20

  19. Happy Birthday Baby O! We love you little man.  It’s going to be an exciting year ahead….looking forward to watching you grow some more! xoxo

    By Michelle on 2008 05 20

  20. Happy, happy birthday Baby O!! Look how big and cute he got!!

    Wow!  A whole year!  Just like that!  I can’t believe how fast it went by! (Says she… who is looking down at recently post-partum belly flab - and baby who is currently sleeping on daddy’s chest)

    Thanks for sharing the journey with us, Leslie.  This whole mommy thing is much more life in the trenches than anyone ever let on… and it’s nice to know I am not the only one thinking the things you actually have the “balls” to blog about! Damn you for living so far away, though… hopefully we can get together for a drink ‘fer reals’ one day!

    MUAH!

    ~Christine

    By Christine on 2008 05 21